Drabbles - reposted

[caliente_uk]

I first posted these in my LJ a year ago, but I thought I'd repost them again now. I've tweaked them a little, but the sentiment remains the same. :)

Chosen (Buffy's POV)

I've seen the worst and best of him. I've watched him change. He's a good man. He knows me better than anyone I've ever known. He loves me. How could I not have seen the truth until now? "I believe in you", "I'm not ready for you not to be here". What a fool I've been! Way to go, Buffy...your sense of timing has always sucked. You wait until he's going to turn into a great big ball of fire before you tell him. You wait until it's too late. Still...better late than never. Right?

"I love you."



Chosen (Spike's POV)

She's seen the best and worst of me. She's watched me change. I love her more than anyone I've ever known. How could I not have seen the truth until now? She deserves a normal life. What a fool I've been. Bloody hell, Spike! Why wait until you know she bloody well loves you? But I have to do this...I need to do this. Not just for her, but for me. So I have to lie to her. So she can go on living...so one of us is living.

"No you don't...but thanks for saying it."

Comments

[authoressnebula.livejournal.com]

Loved 'em the first time around, and this time, I can put them into my memories! Thanks for reposting sweetie! ^_^

Also, love your icon. That song is now one of my top favorites. ^_^

~Nebula

[caliente-uk.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much, Nebula! :)

My icon was made by the wonderful kazzy_cee. That song always makes me think of Spuffy.

[amybnnyc.livejournal.com]

Oh, sweetie, these are lovely! *sniffle*

I'm so glad that you decided to share them again! :)

[caliente-uk.livejournal.com]

Thank you, Amy! :)

[elisi]

*sniff* Perfect!

[caliente-uk.livejournal.com]

Thank you. :)

[elisi]

If I may be so bold, I'd suggest re-posting in lateseasonlove. It's exactly this kinda thing we'd love to have. :)

Pretty please?

[caliente-uk.livejournal.com]

Do you really think it's good enough?

I'd be happy to, if you think it is. :)

[elisi]

Do you really think it's good enough?
It is *fabulous*! Somehow you've managed to say in two drabbles, what many people have spent long essays trying to formulate!

[caliente-uk.livejournal.com]

Thank you! That means a lot, especially coming from you. :)

[jamalov29.livejournal.com]

I love these ! Beautiful insights into their hearts.

[caliente-uk.livejournal.com]

I'm so glad you liked them, Caroline! Thank you. :)

[spikereader.livejournal.com]

Lovely Cal - thanks for reposting, as I wasn't around a year ago. :)

[caliente-uk.livejournal.com]

Glad you liked them, Carolyn. Thank you! :)

[lmbossy.livejournal.com]

perfect ... they work so well together *hugs*

[caliente-uk.livejournal.com]

Thanks, Claire! They seem to have done a good job of making everyone cry, so I think they had the effect I was aiming for. :)

*hugs*

[lillianmorgan.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much for sharing this again, particularly for someone like me who didn't read it first time round.
What a wonderful concept and dedication to that moment. You really crystallized those few words between them so beautifully, but heart-breakingly too. Yay :)

[caliente-uk.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much for the feedback! I'm glad you liked them. :)

[deborahc.livejournal.com]

::ouch::

What everyone else said.

However - I can't help but think of the implications of Spike's epiphany if he hadn't been about to die when it came to him. I mean, it's a fine and noble justification for lying to her as he's dying, but even without it, wanting to get her to leave before it was too late was motivation enough to lie, or so it's been argued. And the thing is, if he hadn't been about to die and really believed that Buffy deserved a normal life and he'd been selfish and wrong ever to have wooed her and tried to convince her to be with him, then he'd have been just as guilty as Angel deciding for himself what's best for Buffy, regardless of how she may feel. And that is not an attitude that I like to see in Spike.

I guess that was his attitude in AtS 5, at least to some extent, when he didn't tell her he was back or go to her. But I think his silence was more about his fear of her reaction and having his worst suspicions about her feelings for him confirmed than any altruistic conviction about her welfare.

Still, your drabbles beautifully and poignantly illuminate and capture the essence of the Spuffy ending on BtVS. Thank God it lives on in fic.

[caliente-uk.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

I love hearing your views on BtVS, Deborah. Thanks for the feedback! :)

And I happen to agree with the majority of what you say.

Thank God for fanfic!

I hope everything is okay with you. *hugs*

[jerusha]

I don't think I caught these the first time around. Well done with the dual viewpoints.

[caliente-uk.livejournal.com]

Thank you. :)

[renee2939.livejournal.com]

Thanks for re-posting these as I wasn't here to see them the first time around.

I'm of the school of thought that Spike just didin't have the confidence to belive her when she finally told him and that he wanted her out of the Hellmouth before it all came down. Having said that, I still really liked these two drabbles.

Good job, Cal.